Turn your wounds into wisdom

So i'm sitting in the rocking chair watching the girls while they wind down from their sugar rush from the cookies mema and papa gave them and i feel like i need to do something.  i need to do something creative or something awesome.  But im soooo tired.  i went to bed at like 3 and had weird ass nightmares about cigs probably because its school time and im craving.  It always made school better when i could smoke after class or before class.  I miss my damn 27's or 72's.  But im trying really really really hard not to start back up.  Its been about 2 and a half months since my last cig.  seems like forever and a day ago.  damn nicotine.

Never start smoking unless you intend on never stopping.  They start to run your life and effect you in all portions of your life.

Last night while i had insomnia i was watching a show called worst weddings.  OH man that show was a train wreck i could only watch a minute of it without laughing my ass off.  This couple got married in the woods and everyone was in camo hunting suits including the bride she wore no dress just hunting outfit.  WTF? and for their honeymoon the husband is taking her hunting and calling it a huntingmoon.  He bought her a bow for hunting as a wedding gift. wtf? some people really just wow i dont even know.

Watching LA ink the other night really made me want my tattoo fixed.  I want to add so much to it and fix it soooo bad!  If only i was allowed to.

ohkayyy anyways enough of the pictures.

So i have a few ideas for my novel stupps (stuff but sydney pronounces it as stupps)
I just have to get in the right mood to start writing it.  and when i say right mood i mean in a confident mood haha.

Im really excited for football season.  Out here in Texas it's the biggest thing ever.  I'm thinkin about getting a cowboys jersey and i want to go to the highschool football games cause if you've ever seen friday night lights like i have you know how awesome it is.  I wish cowboy tickets weren't so much money or else i would go to a game.

I still need to start my moms scrap book but i am so freakinn tired its rediculous.  If i would stop having all these nightmares and insomnia i wouldnt be so tired but nooooooo i have to have nightmares everynight.

Right now Michael is playing guitar and the girls are watching bolt.  Soon i will be getting Mc Donalds for dinner and feeling guilty about all the calories im eating.  Hopefully soon once i get into a schedule of working out i wont be gaining so much weight.  I may still "look thin" but ive gained like 10 pounds recently and im not lovin it.  bleh.

WEll imm off for a little while sorry this post wasn't too exciting it's been a pretty laid back day.  Ill write later.  Bye bye worldd.